Writer's Block

Holy crap!

It's been months since my last update... and yet, I find that I have nothing to talk about still... :(

Well, I do have a couple of gripes.

I've been going through some of my extra curricular projects list, and whoa! It's long and getting longer still... most of it are writing-related (such as this blog). Man, I used to be such an avid writer. Does the working life really kill your inner abilities? Does it really kill the special skills one develops over the growing years?

Take for example, my writing (and back to that again...)

Man, I used to be such an avid writer (yes, I'm repeating myself to stress this into my poor, overworked, stressed brain). I used to be able to put down unintelligible thoughts into coherent words and sentences merely by putting my hands to a keyboard and typing away. I stopped being an avid writer some time during 4th year high school. I was a "dead writer" all throughout college, then started writing again a few months after I graduated. It was a good flux of thoughts and ideas for a few months, then I lost the drive again.

It's been an off-again, on-again thing for me ever since.

Take for example, the Inu Yasha fanfic that I started working on a few months after I graduated. I posted this publicly (courtesy of www.fanfiction.net), and I updated that fanfic regularly, adding a new chapter at least once every 2 weeks. One thing about updating regularly is that you soon get a fan-following... which was really encouraging. The knowledge that people I don't know were actually taking time to sit down and read something I've made was inspiring, to say the least. I was on a roll.

Then near Chapter 9 of my 2nd fanfic, I backed myself into a plot-corner, and got the worst case of writer's block I've ever had the misfortune to experience.

That fanfiction has been waiting for Chapter 10 for almost 2 years.

I was able to get myself out of it after I finally made myself sit down and WORK on the damn thing. After Chapter 10 was posted, however, I once again found that I "lost the touch". :(

So here I am, in my favorite Starbucks haunt with my laptop, looking at an open word document with "Chapter 11" screaming in front of me... still very blank.

Now what?

While staring blankly into my screen, I started thinking about my other, unfinished (and ongoing) projects, such as my 3 blogsites (you're reading 1 of them right now), my 2 fanfics, my unfinished entries for numerous fiction-writing contests that ended months ago and my not-yet-started epic fiction story that I've had in my head for over 10 years. I doubt this epic fiction thing will ever get written... it involves a lot of necessary historical and mythological research, which I simply cannot find time for.

Well, here's one good thing... bemoaning the loss of my love for writing enabled me to update my blog. *rolls eyes*

Useless update, bah...